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妈妈病了

上个星期一早上我坐在公车上的时候,爸爸给我打电话了,说妈妈又话要跟我说,于是,妈妈跟我说了10分钟”我说不出来“。是的,她只说了这四个字。

焦急,沉默,我对我自己很失望。我是男人,我却不知道该怎么办。

越来越觉得结婚是个错误的决定但是又不知道如何是好,
越来越觉得自己的表现很差却又总无法改进,
该说的话总也说不出来,词不达意的话却常常让人误解,
注定要去面对的东西却总是一拖再拖,

曾经以为爱情是唯一值得为之奉献的东西却也失之东隅,
对父母复杂的感情和他们艰难的处境让自己倍感无力,
一个完美主义的人栽到在一个满身是洞的灵魂里,

呵呵,罢了罢了。

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  1. 妈妈怎么了?

    你要相信会越来越好的。乖。

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